*Sigh*

Ok, so, the last time I posted something, I had a lot of stuff running through my head. Well, now I've decided what I'm going to do, and then begun to wish for something to happen, something that might make it all go a little quicker.

Here's the stitch; I can't just ruin somebody's summer, at least, for my own personal gain. Sure, two people *might* gain from it, depending on how things go with the wish, but alas... two people can be happy later, when an entire summer is ruined. I can't rip every friend from someone... I can't be that mean. If I wait, then things will be a lot better, as the friends that would be leaving, are going to be with her, and thus, not with me, therefore, she'll have support, and people to be with, instead of being all alone. That way, we both have the ability to be happy, or happier than otherwise we would be.

As for the rest of everything, there isn't much left to talk about right now, so I'll leave ya'll with something interesting to think about.

If the person you loved most, hated the thing that you wanted the most, then what would you choose? Love, or lust.

Its about time

So... I've been "journaling" for quite some time, I post it on my computer anyway, might as well go public. It seems like a good idea since I plan on being the president someday, people are gonna wanna read how my mind worked before I went insane. Anyway...

So, I've decided not to return to UNT in the fall, but how long I'll stay away, I don't know. As much as I want to go to Austin, and get away from home, not to mention being able to hang out with Charlie everyday, I really am gonna miss a few people at UNT. A lot. I know thats a terrible reason to stay, and to leave for that matter, but I don't know where I want to go in life. I thought life was going to be easy ya know? It is quite a bit harder than I originally expected it. I complicated things, and its my own fault I know, I just wish I knew an easy solution that would make me as happy as I know I can be.

Anyway, I guess I'll leave it short for today, but I'll probably be updating this later on during the week. Like anyone's gonna read this anyway ami right?


Jason